back again. just feel a certain rush of familiarity at this place:D

cried while reading Dear John, small things trigger my tears now. crying alot the pass three days when im at home. the smallest thing can make me just burst into tears. i dont know why. i tried controlling, but i just cant.

perhaps i am really a bad friend. read teenage and the part about how to be a good friend.
never be jealous of your friend, you should feel happy for them
dont get angry easily, listen to the reason
forgive easily just as how they would forgive you
all this three points that i still rmb, i broken them. i am never a good friend, probably only on that gets jealous ever so easily, get angry eventhough i already knew the reason and i can forgive easily. so many apologies to say, to so many people.

and with a heavy heart, i say goodbye
not turning back
afraid to let you see the tears falling

I remember the simple things
I remember til I cry
But the one thing I wish I’d forget
The memory I wanna forget
Is Goodbye

MOVED

“摄影是让瞬间变成永恒的魔法”
pictures are like magic that make a moment  last forever.

快乐是片大海
我是飞翔的翅膀
要自由要寻找
一群闪亮小岛
排成很大的微笑
叫幸福群岛

MUSICAL EVENING!:)

it wasnt really that bad. screwed up Pinocchio. damn sad that of all songs i screwed this one up, and it was so damn obvious.haha. Der Vogelhandler wasnt that bad:) haha sorry roslina, haha i screwed up the back part as usual again and had to resort to anyhow.hehe sorry sorry.

thanks xiling for your guidance:)i really did rmb what you say,but sometimes i just cant articulate properly.sorry sorry
thanks roslina:) for being so nice and coming to sch to help us carry stuff.not bad ah, actually can carry alot alot of things. haha and for playing Der vogelhandler.(im smiling,happy?)
thanks awesome jia yi for being such a great section mate, helping me rmb hello dolly and practising with me eventhough you are already so tired:) 谢谢你，爱死你了！

woke up with a sore throat. damn pain my throat and my arm hurt. dont know why also, but my arm started hurting yesterday halfway through concert.packing my bag soon, going class chalet today!:) yeah! but abit lazy to go now,cause im so tired and lazy, yah, lazy is the word.

MUSICAL EVENING’09!

its tonight, i have been working hard for it. i’ve never practise so hard before in band. my sec1 year was spent slacking, not being serious at all.come to think of it, if i had started working hard from the beginning, i wont have to work so hard now.haiz, regret, regret. but no point regretting, so have to work super hard now to catch up.
虽然你没来，但是今天我会为你表演。
damn nervous now. ahem, all thanks to someone who just had to remind me yesterday night about Der vogelhandler, make me cannot sleep properly the whole night. was practically waking up every hour panicking-.-

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I’ve tried my best to make you see
There’s hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust

today is the first of dec,thats if you get my point of saying the date today.

hate getting up so freaking early when i could have slept longer. STOP SCREAMING INTO MY EARS EARLY IN THE MORNING. its damn irritating-.- imagine holidays and i still wake up at 7plus. who the hell wakes up at 7plus during the holiday?you can wake mei for all i care but please i need my sleep too.

havent done my band camp reflection yet and im suppose to collect it O.O maybe do it after band prac or something anyway, im planning to stay to “wipe” my instrument.

tmr its musical evening and i still cant play all the pieces properly, not even just the main band ones-.- even the first song got problem lah. howhow? the notes so freaking high how to reach? i cant be like jia yi and alex play octave lower cause not allowed to, and that note suck when i reach it. grr.Der Vogelhandler is the worst, wth, cant even play the last part properly, like i can play it SLOWLY but i cant play it at its actual speed which is damn fast, can manage only the first few notes-.-

miss playing the same part as jia yi. wanted to play 3rd for Cant take my eyes of you, but alex refused to play 2nd after she see the score-.- haiz, i havent played the same part as jia yi for about 1year? thats damn long, its super fun playing same part as her.

woots~ im so happy!:) haha new swimming costume! not that i needed it but it was on offer and its quite prettyyy:)haha. later got TK concert! going for section dinner first before going but meritta not going cause we were going to buy her present too so cannot let her know:) haha oh yah! i damn happy i learnt River Flows In You!:) Nina, happy not? hahah i took me quite long cause i never bothered to practise, haha if only i got it in time for GIL at least i wont embarrass myself that much. hahah.learning Reason now, hahah Nina you better be proud of me cause all the scores is you give one:) hahaha

THREE MORE DAYS TO MUSICAL EVENING!
FOUR MORE DAYS TO SECOND DAY OF CLASS CHALET!

moving on.